I Wan To Grow Taller

2011-11-26T11:29:00.002+08:00

i am in the army now!!!

i am not allowed to disclose any info about activities and training. However all i can say is, it really is shagg!

after surviving for 16days. all i ask for is a good rest. Later shall go shopping for army stuffs!

2011-11-10T01:15:00.002+08:00

Its my last day as a civilian.

Morning starts off with sister rebecca coming to yew tee to have breakfast with me. Passed her her early birthday present and i head my way to school.

Met so many of my friends in SP. super duper miss them! went around to find people and ahh!!!! why do i have to go in so early now. So happen that today is poly50 and i get to see most of SMEC peeps! Hopefully they can win!

Went out with Glenys to catch a movie. GOSH it must be the most boring show i ever wants to watch. Star gazing dog sounds like a touching dog show, yes its touching but somehow it was so boring that it knock me and glenys out asleep. So we did some movie hopping haha!! 2nd movie was tower heist. It was a pretty funny show. EDDY MURPHY is back!!!

it was a well spent last day of my civilian. WOOHOO!!!

Thank you all of you who is willing to meetup with me these few days for a meal. appreciate it alot. How i wish i have more time to spend with you guys!!

and its time to theycallmeshort********.blogspot.com

2011-11-08T22:59:00.002+08:00

my last 2nd day of civilian.

i went to find my MOE colleague for lunch. as usual after lunch have some tea break haha.

so had to bus down to CMPB to do some stupid thing. Its as stupid as going through the security checks, all the questionings and then i leave within 1min.

I have to go to identify my own face. Apparently they say they have 2 faces to the my name. SO i had to go down to see my 2 faces. Funny thing is they used face no.1 for my 11B and face no.2 for my EZ-link.

As explained over the phone, both are me and they don't believe. After going down to identify the difference the 2 picture Is the smile. GRRRRR~~~~

after everything i had to bus back to bukit panjang and it was 1hr ride. butt sore from all the sitting and bumping of bus.

Went to WSSS earlier to wait for the junior band members who is dining with me. Watching them march gives me a nostalgic feeling.

with the bunch of juniors always kena bully by them. pretty much a laughter and torture dinner at thaiexpress.

Bloody hell, last 2 days of my civilian life, i sprain my ankle.

2011-11-07T22:50:00.003+08:00

Went to watch movie with Candy, its 2359.

It was hilarious, partly cause of movie partly cause of our reaction.

shop around for this and that but are just window shopping. Everything there is so expensive so i rather go else where buy.

After send her to her bus stop, i went to meet my sis and ah ma for dinner. Magazine say how good how good, actually its just bullcrap!!

ME: Is there pork in this dish? can help me ask chef?

ATB: I don't know should be same as others outside, so NO.

ME: Others outside got add pork leh. can help me ask chef?

ATB: should be same as others outside, so YES.

ME: Can you fucking help me ask the chef is there pork in it!?!

ATB: if you think have then have if don't have then don't lor. i help you ask then tell you.

SMLJ!!!

meanwhile i turn back to another AT clearing the table.

ME: Is there pork in this dish?

AT: oh No we don't serve pork!

ME: so what is that pig trotters?

AT: oh oh only that is pork other dish no pork.

Ah Tiong Bu came back.

ATB: i asked chef, he say got pork.

I turn to the AT

ME: OI your colleague say chef say got pork in it.

AT: oh sorry have this kind of dish sure have de.

KNN SERVICE ALREADY FUCKED UP!

Food served already and start eating however. . . . . . .

they are all so fucking tasteless.

tasteless paper wrap chicken.

tasteless small fish at $38, cut till the stomach and leak the juice, makes the fishy bitter.

tasteless oyster sauce kailan

tasteless fried rice.

DULAN!

P/S : AT = Ah tiong = china guy

P/S / S : ATB = Ah tiong bu = china lady.

theycallmeshort********.blogspot.com updating!!!!

Farewell

2011-11-05T00:19:00.003+08:00

Today is my last day working at MOE. it was a nice experience working there.

There are so many backstage scene people won't know. I faced only tip of the ice-berg of them.

gonna miss them and my make shift table.

My lunch was great, my colleague brought me to pasir panjang for lunch at some korean restaurant. the food was ok ok nia lor. but rather good. don't mind going there to eat again.

2011-11-04T00:13:00.001+08:00

Sad my OT cannot be taken in. so all my hard work OT, all no more =[

well i like the environment and people. so i don't mind =]

the silent happiness shall be my OT!

Must solve!!

2011-11-02T23:25:00.003+08:00

Today was feeling unwell in the morning so didn't went to work in the morning.

Everything was going fine till after dinner. Slightly before end of the day at 9pm. There was some issues and once i try to solve it and i can't understand it. I will die die want to solve it. In the end 10pm gotta wrap up and go home.

Tomorrow then continue dig out the answer.

2011-10-31T22:58:00.002+08:00

Monday Blue!!!

gosh i had a difficult time trying to fall asleep last night due to overdose of caffine from TEA.

KOI ice cream milk tea + Ginger tea + iced milk tea.

was struggling to keep my eyes wide open while at work staring at those numbers for the dunno how many days.

Someone cute idea was to ask me call her and wait for her friend to sms to her phone and result in a vibration which apparently is the reason why i couldn't sleep the night before.

well it indeed made me wide awake after that. it was just a joke that could literally allow anyone to laugh non stop!

it works better than a 5min power nap which i had.

Argh if this goes on i don't have the time to update the taiwan blog. i found my little exercise book which i brought to india and wrote my daily diary while i am there. but i dunno where i toss it to.

and right now i shall go ahead to update another secret blog of mine its call the

http://www.theycallmeshort_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.blogspot.com

2011-10-30T22:00:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps!!

its been long since i last blogged. i am here to update alittle about life of an army soon to be guy. i bet all the readers are all long gone. but well its my online diary too anyways.

i have 2 upcoming blogs that i will be writing in as well. one of which is call

theycallmeshortwenttotaiwan.blogspot.com

and the other one will be a secret =]

theycallmeshort********.blogspot.com

happy guessing ^^

i am going in to TEKONG soon on Nov10. so for the time being i am working in MOE and its kinda irony how i hate education yet i am working in ministry of education.

i am adopting a more normal lifestyle with this office job. at least my sleeping time and meal time are back to normal.

since weekdays are booked by MOE to work, working from 9am to 6.30pm but sometimes OT till 9! weekends are my only time to try to meet up with as many friends as possible.

I've been going out for movies and movies and killing time to meet up and stuffs. i realised i have wasted much of my time, i should have spent the time with people whom i appreciate and get appreciated back in return.

with the little time i have left as a civillian, i went to taiwan for a short getaway. I will post up abit or 2 at the other blog that i will create so feel free to go and have a look.

and also today i went to mary chia with candy for a massage. our mindset of massage was with clothes on till today!!

the staff told me to change into a shorts that they will be providing and ask candy to change into a paper panties and shower cap that they will be providing. YEA only that 2 thing on her and 1 thing on me. So before we knew that we are so little dressed, we told them we don't mind enjoying our massage in a couple room.

end up we went to seperate rooms for out back massage. To me it wasn't really good cause they didn't really use strength to massage for me. Its more of like touching me for the sake of touching.. VERDICT i won't go there for massage!

today is sunday and tomorrow is another day at work. it will be my last monday cause its my last week there. though i told myself not to talk too much with my new collegues cause i will be sad that i have to leave them soon.

Hope that everyday is a fruitful and fun day till my NS days.

2011-07-15T03:18:00.002+08:00

i regret not applying for a job as a relief teacher after i graduate and back from thailand. today i went to try 2 schools and they rejected me cause they are all filled up. DAMN nowadays so many people want to be teacher so badly?

Well no job as teacher never mind. i got a call from my old company Octopus, saying they want me to work for them. a increase in pay by $0.50 and increase in working hours. i wonder whats life at Toucan. worked there once and its pretty different from Eski bar though.

Had a hard time convincing myself and my mom to let myself work in a night life environment. Which means, wake up late, work late, end late, eat late, sleep late and most scary of all, BEER BELLY!!! argh!!

today i went for a reading and my future options are shown to me. Though my future is fixed however it did not reveal to me how it was fixed 2500years ago. Nonetheless, i am choosing a new path thanks to the readings. No more NDU for me, guess imma gamble for a chance to be a RSAF pilot, or maybe private airline pilot. And most importantly getting my lazy ass smart brain into University.

New chapter, new decision, more headache!!!

2011-07-04T04:17:00.003+08:00

My gan ma just went to china, so imma be a 'nanny' if not she won't feel safe going china. So i have to go to her place to take care of 2 son and dog.

Kelvin is just 1 year younger than me nia but gan ma scare of him alone at home. HAHA that good friend of mine just have a cute mom.

Went over his house to wash clothes hang clothes bring in clothes. Bring hachi the dog out for a walk and bath him.

These events are definitely much more eventful than nuaing at home everyday.

2011-06-18T17:38:00.002+08:00

i gonna try posting with my current bb phone.

currently visiting my ah ma at mount elizabeth hospital. hope her knee isn't gonna give her any more problem anymore.

ytd went pulau hantu for fishing trip. don't really like fishing much as it's pretty cruel. but i fished out some fish!! was told by my god ma if i want to be in the navy, i shld avoid fishing and stuffs. if i were to eat fish let other ppl flip the fish. well those are old folks saying and i think its better to follow. hahahahaha

during the fishing trip i was bored so i went to play jumping stone. didn't set a new record but threw a few nice one. then i see venessa train casting like fun only and i learn from his dad. i am falling in love with casting on a fishing trip. so all i did was threw and flick the cast out like professionals does on tv. i manage to try many different kind of casting. they turn out pretty good for a newbie. far and accurate.

2011-06-14T00:42:00.002+08:00

been to a dharma competition pretty last minute due to someone. Well nonetheless, i did my best and just pass. Glad i was in the competition it makes me feel in it and cause of that i realised its pretty interesting.

due to that i am almost sick cause i was awake for more than an entire day, had to study for the competition.

well a class gathering for 4D, play some pool. kill some time. everyone seems unchanged, all are like the same, no one changed. The way they talk, behave reflects every single thing they are when i first met them. its pretty nice to see them once agian.

not to mention i spent 7hrs at primitive looking at hongyi and kien yong applying tattoo makes me wanna get a tattoo for myself as well. a big big wing.

2011-06-11T02:45:00.002+08:00

Had a lazy day, Went queensway primitive tattoo shop and see hong yi and kian yong apply their tattoo. Gian me to make also. I wanna have a big big wing at the back!!! spent 7hrs there.

Went to class 4D class dinner, timah for dinner and then play pool. a pretty nice catch up with them. well, i realise all of us after so many years, we nv change much though.

OMG tio sabo tmr dharma competition. oh correction is later at 9am!! irs 3am and i have to study certain stuffs before i go for the competition and yea great i can't sleep. cause i won't have time to sleep. damn i gotta study alr. thanks huiyee for falling sick. omg die die die. study study study. then slowly gaming gaming gaming.

Redbull gonna be my best bud for tonight again. didn't expect after graduation i still need redbull for this purpose.

IMMA BACK!

2011-06-10T04:49:00.002+08:00

due to some muthafuking arsehoes eff-ing stalking my blog i stop blogging. I hate it when i use this space to rant to myself and sunbian my friends and you pussies just come here copy paste, print screens, print as official report that i am not with them anymore and try to screw me up with my FYP. (pardon me friends oh i mean old friends, thanks for screwing up my last step of poly) =]

luckily i survived the ordeal and of course graduated! As usual i will be lazy to put up pictures here, go ahead to my facebook to check it out.

Life after graduation is just NUA~ back to those ilusive lives with sleep, in the middle of the dark dark night using my best instrument to look for furniture, my shin, playing computer games. having a morning call everyday to ask me wake up to go out or play game.

DAMN can i have a more proper life? don't let me continue this way till Nov. i will definitely cry father cry mother if i enter army this way!

speaking of which. i am enlisting in 10Nov2011. my 21st birthday is 8dec2011!! WALAO SAD LA i can't celebrate my 21st birthday nicely. then the world's gonna fucking end in 2012. MEANS i celebrate my last birthday in 'JAIL'!?!

well definitely imma not gonna believe such bullshits that the world's gonna end.

4.55am i seriously need to get to sleep before ....

i just good morning a friend in twitter...

its gonna be goodnight for me.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

2011-01-19T00:32:00.002+08:00

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

I just felt so heavy for a moment, like the whole world is acting its weight on me(its just my bag with laptop) I can feel the fatigue everywhere, i could hear the prayers of my muscle, i could hear the prayers of my inner self telling me to rest. Maybe i need to learn that in order to win, one must learn to lose. In other words, in order to feel love again, i must learn to feel hurt?

DAMN this is just so boom bang wow phew so many thoughts running through me. I don't know what to do. What am i fighting for? I need a objective, a goal, something i can see, i can feel to spur me on. Whatever that thing is, just give me something that i will fight for. I wanna live my life better.

2011-01-13T00:29:00.000+08:00

read the story no matter u like or dun like ghost story...makes you glued to your chair till the last sentence!

Prior to joining a new company, this guy A was working at boat quay area.

In those tall building offices like UOB and such. His office was quite high up the level at least 30 and above. Normally he will have to stay back for OT and in the evening, all the lifts will be stopped due to security reasons. Whenever he wanted to leave, he will need to call the old security uncle to activate the lift from ground floor to his level.

Then the uncle will send the lift up..

After sometime, he left the company and joined another place where his office also very high up in the building. Hence if do OT, also need to call uncle to send lift up. Then it came the day that he's working OT for the first time at the new place. He stayed back till 12 plus am and When he's about to leave, he called the security uncle to send the lift up. After packing up he went to the lobby to wait for the lift.

He waited and waited. 10 mins passed, Lift not up. He waited for another 10 mins and call the security uncle. S denotes security here.

A: Hello Uncle ah, have you send the lift up?

S: Yeah sent liao.

A: No leh I been waiting for 20 mins liao leh

S: No meh? okie okie I send again.

Another 5 minutes went by. No lift came up. The guy got worried. He's the last person to leave and there's no one around. He called the uncle on his handphone again.

A: Er... Uncle ah, you sure you sent the lift up?

S: Yeah I sent it up twice liao leh.

A: But I saw the lifts all on the first floor leh!

S: Aiyoh. Nevermind. I take the lift up and look for you.

Again, A waited. 5 minutes passed but none of the lift are moving. Then suddenly, his hp ring. The uncle voice was on the other side of the line sounding very weird.

S: Where are you? I am here. But I cannot find you.

All this while A was staring at the display of the lifts. All at level 1..... and the uncle is here.... shit something is not right.

A straight away chiong to the stairs and dashed down the building...

When he reached ground level, he chiong to the security counter and he found out that....

.....

......

.....

He had actually called the old security uncle in the building of his ex-company and not the security uncle of his new office -_-

2011-01-06T16:04:00.002+08:00

Well its been a cold turkey moment for the past months. I've been trying real hard to drop something off my mind. Till now i can only say i almost done it? However i just cant do it anyhow. Things i did to try to keep myself occupied recently are to go party. 2 days in a row to St. james, malaysia trip with my secondary school band, Beach party countdown.

Most of the times i just ask myself, where are my friends when i need them? once in awhile they drop by in my life at the right time, but on most of the time, i can't find a friend to talk to. Lying on my bed staring at a object without much motivation for anything.

1 meal a day is part of parcel of my recent lives as all i do is nua at home doing nothing but gaming and staring into the air. You guys should know how i eat if i am in a good mood. I can eat like 3 meal a day $10 each. must make sure my tummy come out bloated.

few times i have friends who stay in seng kang and we will send them home and will pass by that place. I would go to the places which holds memories and stare into the unit located at the 5th floor. I wish that we can still be friends. Let all the unhappy events and memories be forgotten.

its 2011 and it just didn't start off right, with troubles and commotions all around me. It just screwed up my new year mood. I still looking for a way out of this vortex.

2010-11-30T13:11:00.003+08:00

I've stop blogging for quite awhile cause nothing much to talk about. Maybe just recently i got gold for NAPFA? well not that interesting and nice.

I had a dream this morning. This dream it was so real and i am fully aware that it was a dream. We went shopping at some shopping mall and when we exit the shop we saw the bollywood guy (famous for dancing in trains) and crack us up. Next thing i knew was she writing down what the guy was singing in crossword puzzle format. Frigging weird. When she is done writing we were actually sitting on the ledge of lvl3 of the mall. The space was so constrain. She turn to me and kissed me on the lips. I could feel that it was so real, i could remember how she kissed me in reality. The touch of her lips.

The moment we broke the kiss, i told her "beautiful, this is a dream cause in reality we broke up and things aren't nice". She kissed me on the lips again. AHHH!! i wish that would come true. Then i told her to jump into the olympic pool beneath us few meters out, she was scared, but i told her we are in a dream so just do it. She immediately jump and followed by me. Continue playing by the pool.

My best friend came by (guess who, Andy Lau) HAHA. we began trying to jump back up to the ledge, cause we told ourselves its a dream, we are the creator of impossibles in our dream. So i tried first and i slipped and fell into the pool. We laugh we joke we hug and kiss like we used to. Sad times had to come when my classmate asked me to check on the fridge of my workplace. KNS!!!!

Just before i left to check the fridge, i asked her "can we see each other again? here?" she nodded her head.

sound very much like a fairytale, drama but well, its a dream. I could only say i still miss her badly. very madly too.

2010-11-06T14:50:00.002+08:00

My job at night safari has come to an end. I will miss the fun. the people i met there. I got myself a new job after that. I'm working in eski bar now as floater! First day at work ytd was like different. I tend to get tired from standing and if customers does not require me. I will just keep trying to get used to night shifts job.

2010-10-28T23:16:00.003+08:00

A moment ago i was in lost. Now all i know is i am still shivering in fear in i dunno what fuck. I am crying here alone. Do you know? I am so afraid of losing you with each fucking day. i tell myself its ok no matter what. I have friends who faced problems worst than me. This is nothing. fuck la hor. how to be ok. i can't bring myself to say it, i can't bring myself to do it. I am afraid of telling you all those things that i know. I am afraid to tell you how i really think and feel. I am afraid you will find me childish and paranoid. But do you know how i really feel for you? I want to hug you so badly right now cause by holding you i know that you are safe. I just want to protect you from any harm and danger. I am scared that one day that mother fucker will cheat on you. i am scared that he will plot something on you. You can say i am paranoid and overprotective. But i can't help when i see him. Thoughts are running through my mind like expressway. i scared that you will fall for his trap. how am i to tell you. how how how!

The way you sms, reply, talk to me, react to me. makes me really feel like standing infront of a F1 car and get bang. All i ask for is care and concern from you. All i wish for is to hear your voice and see you. Anything else don't matters.

I haven't got a good night sleep ever since. I jump out of bed, i get cold sweat, i got shocked that i yelled till i woke up. I dreamt of you every fucking night. I dunno why. I just wish that you will be there for me and tell me everything is ok. But where were you? i want to be there for you. i wish for the same treatment back.

To you? i dunno. you may think that i am pure annoying trying to gain ur attention. I dunno how you think. i can sms you, msn you, and you can don't reply me. I duno why. I am paranoid now. Every single thing you do i can't help but to think alot.

I don't wish to use hate to forget you. you don't deserve that. please stop mind fucking me so badly.

我现在感觉非常的绝望。绝望到我死死都相信和期待奇迹的出现。就算全世界的人告诉我奇迹从不出现我还是会等。可能只有绝望的人才会期望有奇迹。我不想后悔。

2010-10-28T23:04:00.003+08:00

what the fucking hell is driving me nuts! fuck. i don't know. why can i feel that i have so many different thoughts so many me. WHY. i can't control myself. fuck. i feel like dying now to stop all the fucking misery in me. Its going to reach a point where i don't know if even you can help me. FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!

2010-10-27T22:27:00.002+08:00

After hitting the gym yesterday with Kelvin today woke up with intense muscleache. It was packed so we literally rush and went for dinner.

Today poly 50 was just fucked up for me. I injured my hand, my toe got stepped on many times. I was fucking pissed cause you that fucking someone. I wish i could empty a round of magazine into his head another magazine into his every part of the body!

Why do i have to go through this SHIT!

2010-10-26T12:21:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I saw the wrong timetable and came to school early for nothing. I could have slept in more and charge up my beauty sleep. So i stayed in FC5 do report and watch show all the way to kill time. Lessons were pretty interesting and then after class i went to raffles.

Met up with Gwen, its been like 3-4 years since i last met her. So went for dinner then ESKI bar to drink and chat. I wrote in an application. If its successful, i will be working at ESKI bar!!

2010-10-24T13:44:00.002+08:00

sorry body for screwing you up. I woke up at 11am but had my heavy breakfast at 10.30pm! went to night safari and chill and then alittle disappointed that suddenly so little people turn up for supper. Stayed out alone for an hour plus waiting to meet friends to go nike physical race together.

The race was indeed tiring, for some reason i had muscle aches on my thigh and butt muscle before i even ran. Plus my ball of feet and toe condition i didn't run fast.

Due to me smoking heavily recently again and the haze i think i am feeling sick now. Diahhorea 2 times at marina sq. Bad breakfast experience. Decided to cab home and rest. i just remembered i had to finish a report by tomorrow! CCB.

2010-10-23T11:01:00.002+08:00

Friday i lose a attendance for nothing. Thanks to haja who tole me no lesson so i stayed at home and then KK facebook status "tutorial class only 4 people" FML!! Lunch in school then meet chelsea and then went for work at safari.

Last night working was fun, small kids asked my for my autograph(without a paper and pen) another small kid gave me sweets treats. Alot of cute japs too! however it all ended with a rather pissed off way. A retarded motherfucker who deserves to burn in hell came.

Fucked my whole night up real badly.

2010-10-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

Today is like the first day of school for me. I attended a full day lesson from 9am-5pm. Few events makes my blood boil. I held back from smoking, and just when i thought everything will be fine. I freaking lose my temper and thrash it out in the gym, on myself on everything. Tell me how!?! its not as easy as i thought.

2010-10-21T10:34:00.002+08:00

Lesson on tuesday was just a total waste of time. I had LOA i still went cause it states PRACTICAL! I woke up a little later so i rushed for class and class have not start. Soon after i reach it started with a 10min video. Afterwhich thats the end of the class and marks the end of the day for studying. WTF!!! i rush to school for a bloody ideo screening session which i thought was a practical. NB!

Out for nasi lemak supper at chong pang last night. 1.30am then reach home. by the time i sleep 2.30am. Had to wake up at 7.30am. where is the 8 hours of sleep i promised myself!!

Today first lesson 1 hour. Avionic system was just blah blah blah, typical indian lecturer with a typical slang and typical student who don't understand and sleep in class. Guess what practical lesson is cancelled so here i am blogging. next lesson beins at 2pm and end at 5pm. FUCKING waste of time. why no one tell me today so fucked up. i would have skip lesson and sleep more. TMD!

2010-10-20T03:14:00.003+08:00

Had LOA but still went for class. Good student yea? Almost gave up studying after listening to Garnesh for 1 hour in his don't understand-a-single-shit-boring Mechanics 3 lecture.

Haze situation is real bad, i am gonna fall sick real soon.

Went home and then out again. Bugis with Kel, Grace and Melvin. Random stuffs and funny jokes and stupid stuffs. Went to some void deck and talk about things troubling Kelvin. Felt bad that i could not think of a solution to help him and godma. Could only stand by him and just walk this through.

I wish i could help him, if i could help him, i should be able to help myself in this family situation i face now. SHAGG!

Where is the 8hours of sleep i promised myself. Its 3am plus and i am waiting for my hair to dry, i have to wake up at 9am for class. I have LOA but its practical, i don't want to arrange for a make up session. DANG!

Sometimes a teenager should not know about all the woes and worries that adult life have. It will only traumatize us.

2010-10-19T00:08:00.003+08:00

Timetable for HO THIAM JOO IVAN for 10/11 S2 starts on 18-10-10


	8:00 - 9:00	9:00 - 10:00	10:00 - 11:00	11:00 - 12:00	12:00 - 13:00	13:00 - 14:00	14:00 - 15:00	15:00 - 16:00	16:00 - 17:00	17:00 - 18:00
Mon			MM3826 OM Tutorial DARE/FT/3B 05 T1635 Soosaipillai Arulanandam Sem2Wk1,3,5,7,13,15,17			ET0164 AVS Lecture DARE/FT/3B 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT18A Chua Low Boon Sem2	MM3105 MECH-3 Lecture DARE/FT/3B 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT18A Ganesh Sem2	MM3840 HF Lecture DARE/FT/3B 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT18A Chew Ah Leng Sem2	MM3530 ACSYS Lecture DARE/FT/3B 05,06 T1845 Gopal Venkataraman Sem2
Tue					ET0164 AVS Lecture DARE/FT/3B 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT18A Chua Low Boon Sem2	MM3105 MECH-3 Lecture DARE/FT/3B 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT18A Ganesh Sem2	MM305Z PROJ-1 Project DARE/FT/3B 05 Sem2	LC0514 CSW Tutorial DARE/FT/3B 05 T1834 Kim Ki Jin Sem2
Wed	MM305Z PROJ-1 Project DARE/FT/3B 05 Sem2		MM3105 MECH-3 Practical DARE/FT/3B 05 T1652 Tan Yu Toh Sem2Wk1,3,5,7,13,15,17
Wed			MM3105 MECH-3 Tutorial DARE/FT/3B 05 T1631 Tan Yu Toh Sem2Wk2,4,6,8,12,14,16,18
Thu		MM3530 ACSYS Lecture DARE/FT/3B 05,06 T1635 Gopal Venkataraman Sem2	ET0164 AVS Practical DARE/FT/3B 05 W1321/B Chua Low Boon Sem2			ET0164 AVS Lecture DARE/FT/3B 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT18A Chua Low Boon Sem2	MM3840 HF Lecture DARE/FT/3B 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT18A Chew Ah Leng Sem2	MM3530 ACSYS Practical DARE/FT/3B 05 W1315/B Gopal Venkataraman Sem2Wk1,3,5,7,13,15,17
Thu								MM3530 ACSYS Tutorial DARE/FT/3B 05 T1845 Gopal Venkataraman Sem2Wk2,4,6,8,12,14,16,18
Fri	MM3840 HF Tutorial DARE/FT/3B 05 T1564 Tng Swee Huat Sem2		MM3826 OM Lecture DARE/FT/3B 05,06 T1564 Soosaipillai Arulanandam Sem2	MM3826 OM Lecture DARE/FT/3B 05,06 T1564 Soosaipillai Arulanandam Sem2
Sat

2010-10-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

Quick update here.

due to my injury i thought i would be a good boy and stay at home, who knows GLENDA thought i was well known in everything asked me over to her place for mahjong session. Thanks btw, however sorry to disappoint you all i dunno how to play mahjong. I learnt how to play though and won a game which i played in. ( i only play 1 game 自摸！）

Thanks Kelvin for force starting your car to come fetch me, Drived to seng kang to pick up some cables, too bad can't stop by for supper at kovan cause the battery spoil. So drive back to his place and eat delifrance in esso!

Chat till 2.30am before cabbing home. Slept at 3am.

waking up unwillingly to visit the doctor at bukit batok polyclinic. Nothing serious cause swelling subside alittle. X-rayed and no crack or fracture! Thanks man, it was a good news. Though much time was wasted in the polyclinic going from different room to different rooms. Got MC and today was lectures so i decided to skip and go meet brian.

Thanks to him for lending me money for breakfast and movie. TMD! my POSB　no money then had to pay cash and everything on me. So was penniless. Nap at brian's house before going to causeway to meet Yong Ting for EAT.PRAY.LOVE.. 2nd time watching it and still its nice though some part can really bores me. Nice movie. I love Italy part, its just eat and eat and eat like no tomorrow. Italy is the SEX.

Went to God-ma place to slack and chat with Kel. Miracle that i nv drink wo! Thought it would be nice to drink a cup or 3 of Heineken.

2010-10-17T15:32:00.002+08:00

I need a doctor now!! The front part of my left foot got run over by a tram at night safari! It was not really my fault or anyone else fault as it is not done by anyone. Its one of 'them' who push my leg calf towards the tram wheel while i was running. The split second was like 10seconds to me. How i try to pull my leg back but just can't and when it was ran over by the wheel. Bad one there. My toe nail is coming off, my ball of the foot now start to hurts badly after i wake up.

What a screwed up night.

Another reason why its screwed up cause i have to partner with someone else for work tonight. Well, the organisers have their difficulties if they change his or mine role. I did my part my best and gave him a good scolding. Don't understand why is people of his characther and high class live want to come and do these shits to flirt girls.

Supper at CCK mac! 302 close!!! why why why!?!

i think i tmr then go polyclinic before going school! haven't bank in my cheque yet.

Pictures are up on facebook for wavehouse and night safari halloween special.

2010-10-16T00:37:00.002+08:00

Thanks kelvin and grace, when i drop my tears their silence understands it all and gave me a consoling hug. Thanks! I wish i could go batam with you all this sunday if not for my god damn passport!!!!

Today was rather pissed. Went to sentosa for tanning and sleeping at the beach. There is like so little people not much things we can do too. but i went wavehouse for flowrider barrel ride. Its the artificial wave and pictures not up yet.

Night safari was not that naise!!! The gui mansion was just me hiding trying to scare my own friends, the tram ride was god damn boring for me and those wakeboarders. Cause so many ghost go break, like 5 of them. They scare 1st and 3rd cabin we were in the 2nd one. Forest giant trail was so so la, cause its a short distance.

Its funny to see how Don and Chelsea got scared badly. And how some of them try to scare me but i 'just forget' to show that i am scared. HAHAHA.

Thanks for the insect repellent from xinlei, if not i will kena alot alot of mosquito bites.

Funny how some ghost no matter how i talk to them and stare into their eyes they still stay in characther damn well. But some just shout " i am XXX" EPIC fail! even my friends were like "ivan your XXX friend call you" Disgrace to that costume, cause i am going to wear them! TMD!

2010-10-13T01:06:00.002+08:00

Skip going to school for FYP, i was tired so might as well skip and do more R&D at home since i got work later that day. Plus our goal is different, you people aiming for the honour to display our project in the classroom. I am aiming for my project to be showcased in the tentage! not even a 2nd leve lof honour in the workshop. Decided not to put in so much effort into this got damn aeroplane if all you jokers are aiming are to go into classroom.

Work was fine just a few scares today and dinner at 302 with some scare crews and OCs. I am shagg.

2010-10-12T00:25:00.002+08:00

The day started bad however as time pass by things gets better.

suppose to reach schoo lat 9am i woke up at 9am. I pressed stop instead of snooze. Luckily i woke up with a shock from a dream. Nightmare i would say. Well carry on. Pissed with my team mate for the most simple thing. As a friend, as a team mate this kind of thing should not happen and with that bloody explanation. FUCKED UP i would say.

Problems, questions, doubts were running in my mind when this project started, however each tie i raised them you guys nv answer and it became unheard like that. Or best brush me off. Today 2 points/questions raised among all the questions raised by the FYP lecturers were the ones i thought of. Guess what i got from my team mates? Silence and a pissed of reply, everytime after a review then you say you last time got say before. What am i to say. I am so fucking pissed!

Went for lunch with wakers and out for a movie since my appointment was cancelled last minute. Its a nice movie, EAT, PRAY, LOVE. it wasn't the kind of boring shit i expected it to be. Though they relate the movie to somehow like my situation i would say, yea abit similar. But i wish i was the female lead too. My current life now is totally incapable of doing those stuffs. The movie however somehow enlighten me alittle.

Dinner at mad jack and we went seperate ways. I went causeway point to meet grace and Kelvin. Its always nice to go out with them, eat and chit chat at playground. Somehow after going out with them, and after the movie with the wakers, i seems to have let things go alittle and felt better definitely.

New lease of life. I shall put in my best in everything and gonna get a new haircut!

2010-10-10T23:38:00.002+08:00

Its a long and tiring day to the max. Woke up and all i can do is just wash up and rush to bishan to meet Julien. Guess what i am early by 1 hour. We went to mediacorp for some interview which i am keeping it a secret for now. MUAHAHAHAHAAA..

Due to the interview purpose, we had to go around singapore doing something. Morning to night outside bussing around. My $1 coins in my wallet are vanishing! Need to stock up the lucky coin again.

Well i am going to stop asking why and tell myself be glad that things didn't turn out worst. Allizwell!

2010-10-10T02:32:00.002+08:00

Slept at 5am and woke up at 8am. barely 3hours of rest i dreamt of that image again. It shocked me badly and i cou;d sleep anymore. What is happening? Why am i going nuts?

Work was better than yesterday just that i got my hand crushed and survived.

While waiting for bus i wish i didn't move away from gary's path. I wish the just come into me and allow me to just rest.

2010-10-09T04:29:00.004+08:00

Excused myself from FYP today, expecting a tiring night from halloween. i was early and brought my lappy with me to watch movie. My make up took only 5minutes and well i waited from 2.30 to 6.30 before heading out to my respective station. Great laughs at some gay guy to compensate the time there waiting. Pretty fucked up to bully the gay boy, but who cares, i am feeling fucked up now and i don't care if i am seen as a fucked up guy.

Changed into my costume and felt funny wearing the boots, it felt like tiny stones in between the boots and my socks, but i was too lazy to bother. Minutes later i felt something crawling up my leg and i thought was just the table cloth, to my horror my boots were infested with ants, commando ants. Lucky for me they seems to have been starved for a week, no energy bite me.

Today job was more of a chore, The night sky is so bright element of darkness couldn't be put into play nicely, So many fucked up idiots who do not understand english or their own language "NO FLASH PHOTOGRAPHY" They think they are braved and go for the ride and gave me a few punches. They think they are funny and cool to act like a bloody joke.

The flashes caused me to fall off the tram and into the bushes, lucky for me the bushes somehow acted like a spring and pushes me back upright, however i was literally flashbanged!

Halfway through, a disturbing image flashed in my mind, i got a spilt headache almost immediately, i couldn't help but to drop you a msg of concern. All i got back was a message that felt like a harsh treatment reply. I was devastated. I don't deserve this really. That moment i felt that i could take it no more and wished i could stand infront of the tram and get banged and get serverly injured and stay in hospital and cut off from the world.

After work met kelvin and grace at 302 @ 2am for supper. I miss those time when we just go out have fun, sit down chat and smoke. left at 3.30am and walk my way home. by the time i reach home freaking 4am. on the way, at 2 different location i can feel them following me and disturbing me. One of them was obviously tapping my bag, i could freaking hear the taps and felt it on my bag. Another one was just following me. Well i am too tired and fucked up to be affected.

sometimes i really wish to say them out, but i can't bring myself to say.

Well for those who try to talk to me in msn, show me vids to cheer me up, dunno why am i so fucked up recently, i don't really want to say, but if you do really want to know what is going on in my life right now. www.theycallmeshortlikesbeautiful.blogspot.com is the answer.

here are pictures of chloe and magret camwhoring with my webcam.

its 5am i should get my rest already.

2010-10-08T00:18:00.003+08:00

School for FYP and it is the toughest challenge of the project. Fabricating of the channel wing. If it spoils i gonna cry my heart out. So difficult to make.

Went to wirda's house for hari raya, nice food and all the snacks. sit down and watch 3 idiots again.

2010-10-06T22:34:00.002+08:00

FYP in the morning and great plane was briefly assembled and able to tax abit, due to the nose landing gear, i couldn't tax straight. Didn't dare to let it take flight so drift around with the plane and spoilt the propeller. Success is coming i can smell it. I am diverting my attention to my FYP and i am going to aim for SPinnovex!

Lavender for hobby shop to check out airplanes stuffs. Tomorrow have to repair the plane with the advices and steps given by the laojiaos. Got home changed and went for a long run.

Just nice saw Lydia my jogging buddy. Jogged to BPP for dinner then jog back home. Personal training to cover up for tomorrow training which i am skipping.

2010-10-05T23:51:00.002+08:00

Monday training was shagg la. Training for poly 50 and its only a few laps.

Tuesday is just FYP, gonna make that plane do taxxing tomorrow i guess. Hospital to visit The Lee family. "happily" aka Happy lee which is unofficial name for Law's baby.

Did some casual chat with Law and Yi Cai which leads to something that i am trying to grasp. I am still finding the meaning of my life.

2010-10-03T15:53:00.002+08:00

Friday morning went for my kayaking 1 star course. I am still used to strokes of dragonboat. Was bloody slow in learning single kayak, i still prefer double kayak. Rush off quickly to go to night safari for work. First night as ghost, work is rather fun! Scare 80% of the trams passengers with the price of having my right toes crushed by the trams wheel twice. by the time reach home 2.30am already.

Saturday morning once again continue my kayak course, still sucky. Worst still mood went bad. Not enough rest, mentally and physically tired. bad mood came and fucked my time badly. After lunch smoke 2 sticks and felt better, but not long later, things start to gets bad again. I can't handle my emotions well enough. 2nd night of scaring event was awesome, alot of good feedbacks and comments. well left toe got crush once, face bang into the tram front, was used as a punching bag 4 times. drinking 3 bottles of water and didn't pee cause it all came off as sweat. Sweat like i just swam finish.

I'm still finding my god damn phone. left it on silent due to work, lost somewhere in my house!

2010-09-30T22:50:00.003+08:00

Monday.

Training in school before going to Queensway with Sarah to settle POLY50 running singlets. It was raining like hell and we just walk to IKEA for some cheesecake. It's nice thats why. Bought some and went to SGH to find someone. Pass her some cakes and chit chat before going to Jurong Point to have dinner with Nazi! Sorry people very late agian HAHA. Thank you Julien for the friendship band=] Back to school to crash ICE camp day 0.

Tuesday. Day 1.

Over slept in CSCC club and report in late. It was a pretty boring day 1 running around T1 to T10 aimlessly. (I do not respect all the president of sports club whom i know in these 3 years). Fucked up people gets to become president of sports club every year.

Wednesday. Day 2.

Events slightly improved but blah blah, its not enjoyable at all without someone. Stood up the whole night and slept for 1 hour before going for training.

Thursday. Day 3.

Woke up after 1 hour of sleep, went for wakeboarding training hoping to see someone but hopes are dashed when i don't see her. Went back to camp and then some photo taking session. BORING! Only thing shiok is kena tiger balm all over the face and nipples. Swallowed some and felt weird in the tummy, menstral panadol also. rub toothpaste and tiger balm all over my face and then onto Za Woo face. Ended up burning my eyes and tears. Thats the summary for ICE.

BORING EH!

2010-09-27T01:45:00.002+08:00

Its going 2am and here i am blogging and watching random stuffs on the net. I need to wake up at 6am to pack my bag for camp, meet somebody else where to pass some money before going to school for training. I gotta get panda eyes soon. Real black eyes.

Missed F1 this year cause i spent everyday these few days in mount elizabeth with my grandma. Tix wasted but well, grandma more important.

I ain't really eager to attend ICE camp as much now due to some reasons, in fact only 1 reason. However i will still attend it but not with much of the crazy ivan? i join as a camper to be able to spend more time with that person, play with that person. however situation forbids us to.

Nevertheless Hitler is going back to ICE Camp! Nazi is surviving with a few members but we are invading the prison break!

2010-09-27T01:08:00.001+08:00

MANILA, Philippines – A Philippine court has sentenced a father to 14,400 years in prison after he was convicted of the near daily rape of his teenage daughter over the course of a year.

A trial court originally condemned the man, a rickshaw driver, to die in March 2006 after he was convicted of 360 counts of rape _ allegedly carried out during the year his wife worked in Hong Kong.

But the Court of Appeals in Manila commuted the sentence to 40 years for each count, according to a court decision obtained Friday. The defendant can still appeal to the Supreme Court. It was not clear if he would.

The then-13-year-old victim, now 22, said her ordeal began in January 2001, when her mother left for work in Hong Kong as a domestic helper and left her three children with their father in Los Banos, a township just south of Manila.

She said he forced her to have intercourse with him almost every day, except when she had her period or on holidays, when he would make her perform oral sex.

The ordeal only ended after she and her siblings spent a vacation with their mother's relatives. Reluctant to return to her father at the end of the vacation, she broke down and told her family about the abuse. Her mother returned home from Hong Kong and helped her file the case.

The appeals court affirmed the lower court's dismissal of the defense's contention that the man's wife made up the allegations to get custody of the children and marry a foreigner.

2010-09-24T23:44:00.003+08:00

Thursday instead of land training it was a cycling session with the Wakeboarders. Met at pasir ris then we rented a bike each and cycle to changi for breakfast. Cheryl and sarah went to look for us for a breakfast and they are off. So the rest of us continue cycling to ECP.

Due to the lack of time i wasn't able to go nearer to the runway and take pictures! Partly cause it was raining too. It was so heavy we had to make a few stops and hell yeah it was fun.

Cause i was drenched and my pouch wasn't water proof my extra clothes were wet too, had to go home and change before going to Mount Elizabeth hospital. Visited my grandma.

Well the whole of friday was spent with my grandma too.

Not staying over at Alji house with Jiawei, he sure stay up whole night L4D or DOTA. i going to visit my grandma tmr again=]

It hurts me to see her suffer like that,

2010-09-21T20:26:00.002+08:00

Went for class lunch and guess what only like 8 people turn up. Its a well fed day, 1 curry pizza set, 1 curry baked rice set, 4 drumlets, 1 choco brownie with vanilla ice cream. total damage for me alone is $25.

Arcade with only Rizwan and Hajar. Play some old games and i lose touch with alot of games already.

Back to school for FYP. tomorrow FYP 8am!!

2010-09-20T21:17:00.002+08:00

Went for rehearsal for night safari scare crew. its a freaking long day, 10am i reached and left at 8pm. Changed in character temporarily which is much easier and fun than my previous one. At least i do not have to partner a asshole who only thinks for himself and bring himself up like some arrogant guy who flirts around with girls only.

Be sure to go night safari during October. you stand a chance to see IVAN haha.

2010-09-19T01:03:00.002+08:00

So i didn't had a good night sleep after yesterday volunteer work at Holland Ave. I didn't sleep the whole night till like 5.30am, woke up at 6am to morning Bianca, before falling back to sleep at 6.30am, woke up at 6.45am to morning call Wirda. Well my alarm for myself is 7am. So i didn't sleep and wash up and breakfast at 7.20am. I was early but cause i waited for late comers that overslept and ended up not attending, i was late.

Cab ride was fucked up i swear.

kayak to a nearby shore and picked up rubbish(CIP), Pictures are in my FB. only a handful, Then kayak to another distance place and back to People Association. Its damn tiring for me today!

Chiong to Holland Ave for Volunteer thingy. My thoughts will be screened on TV either on 24oct or 2nov, so i lazy say here. I ended at 11.30pm and here i am home. i am shagg!!!

2010-09-18T01:27:00.002+08:00

Today happily relax wake up watch a random movie, play dota, slowly make my way to bath. Not feeling hungry so i didn't eat breakfast. I just felt that something is amiss so i checked my phone calender which is display on the screen. 5pm to do volunteer work at Holland Ave, when i check the time its 4.30pm. Panick to the max, faster dry hair chiong out and to realise i am able to reach on the dot and am the first to reach among 5 people.

Pathetic i had to dabao mixed vegetable rice and eat as i walk to the house.

Unpacking was hell of a time, Theres alot to unpack cause the people of that house keeps alot of unnecessary stuffs and alot of things which has sentiment values in them. Its a 2 bedroom kind of house so its rather packed and dusty. its a tiring day and its 12 when i left there in a cab.

Tomorrow wa even longer day, morning going for a beach cleaning up CIP with some wakeboarding people and then to holland ave house again for the volunteering thingy for CHANNEL 5. I will be screened on first episode and second episode of season 2 renovate. HAHAHA. i'm on TV!! remember to catch me on TV. HAHA.

2010-09-17T14:23:00.001+08:00

Stucked at home, no to ask to go with. Thought of going to repair laptop with huimin, but guess the weather is making her comfortable to stay home. Well i guess thats the reason Kel's still asleep too. WHERE TO GO AND KILL TIME!?!

2010-09-16T22:40:00.003+08:00

Its finally a rest for me, Today i had my last paper for the semester!!

I lose a friend, who doesn't deserve to even have a friend.

Today i finally wakeboard for the first time. YEA!

Today i am dead beat.

Today i am trying to be happy =]

Well wakeboarding for the first time isn't like so wow to me. I dunno why i feel that if speed was faster i could do better. I prefer to learn things in fast pace. Prolly cause i got the basic abit faster and i paid $40 for 15min. EXPENSIVE!!! Going on to the boat on empty stomach is no no. Riding with huimin with empty stomach also a big NONO. HAHA

Dinner at Hougang pepper lunch. I controlled my diet!

2010-09-16T00:07:00.001+08:00

As much as i wish that i can ignore you and drown my sorrows with alcohol and stuffs. I still hope you will give me a call, drop me a text, ask me out. I want the truth yet i can't handle the truth. I have never learn to accept the truths standing infront of me. I want to scream, i so fucking want to scream so loud that everything will crumble under my roar. I so want to punch everything down till no building or structure is taller than me. I want to hug you so tightly again. I just need to feel loved and cared by someone.

Can you lie to me? My heart can't take it. I dunno how long i can accept this truth till. I've been telling myself i must be strong infront of you, i can't let you know i am so easily beaten down. I lost the motivation to stay strong. You were my motivation, now i lost you. My heart sank with tears tears dripping down everytime i see your face, everytime i think of your face.

I just need alittle support from you, but i dunno how to get it from you now. I'm not tired of trying, i am not tired of getting the same answer, but i am tired and scare of getting the same feeling all the time.

i want to talk to you, i want to see you, i want to do so much things with you, but i don't want to feel like i am bugging you, i am stressing you, i am forcing myself on you. I dunno what i want also. please do not give up on me during this period of time. i will suck it up and be strong but i need you to be there to help me tide this through.

2010-09-15T20:17:00.003+08:00

So much for being friends for so long huh. You don't deserve any friends, you don't deserve to be anyone's friend. Drop your fucking act. I dunno how the hell am i going to stand your fucking face and attitude any longer. Once this shit is over, you go your fucking way. And that 2 headed shit too. Fucking good at saying things behind each other back and look like a neutral party infront of us. great acting skills.

alright you people just had your ways. I am fucking through with all this shits. FUCK

2010-09-14T20:26:00.002+08:00

Suppose to study at 1 plus till evening time. however, a changed of plan and ended up at beautiful's BFF cousin house. Wasn't productive so imma going to stay up abit later and study.

This is for you beautiful and me, we gonna control our diet! HAHA. i won't 'xianqi' you de la. HAHA

2010-09-13T16:01:00.004+08:00

Beautiful, i just wanna tell you even if its a zillion and two times now, i really like you alot.

Whatever it is i will be strong for you, i will not let you down. The promised i made i will fulfill it.

If you are going to fall in love with me, it's only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession. my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I'm a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I'm with you, the way I'll text you in the mornings hoping you have a great day. You're falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things i say, and the way i blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite thinking that it is impossible.

L.E.T.M.E.B.E.Y.O.U.R.L.A.S.T

2010-09-12T04:24:00.002+08:00

Met up with beautiful and went to Don's place to study. things regarding don's place will be posted in another blog. Try finding! HAHA

So after we left Don's place, i went to night safari at 10am without sleeping a wink last night. rehearsal for Halloween night was tormenting for my mind and body. I hope they will make amends to my costume. This time the make up was worst than first time. i can't elaborate much on Halloween night part.

Right after rehearsal went home bath and felt refresh for steamboat buffet dinner. Celebrating Brian's birthday and its so great to go out with raymond, Joey, Brian and Yong Ting. Especially when the joker Raymond weekend book out for NS.

Dunno how many mugs of tiger drank, 2 bottle of red wine. Everything finished and home. Its a great place with great people to hang out to chill and chit chat. Now i am real tired waiting for hair to dry. With the red wine in me, its so easy to have a good night sleep. NIGHTS!

2010-09-10T00:57:00.002+08:00

Took 1 hour to memorize the bloody formulas and another hour lazing, not studying the theories. Go for QEM test and think i can do it? Went home to rest for the day. No studying for me.

Beautiful came over and she study while i rest. Heng she sleeps too if not she will prolly hear me sleeptalk. Watched a movie and out for dinner. Sent her home and i am home!

I need 13hours of sleep nett. calculating the interest rate i need like 15hours - 16hours of sleep!!

2010-09-09T07:41:00.002+08:00

Tried to study but nothing just gets in. Too tired i went to sleep. Thinking it will be only an hour, i set alarm and asked alvin to call me when he is sleeping. Just nice he is sleeping 1 hour later.

My body told me to wake up and check the time and !!!! its 5.45am. i was like siao liao siao liao, a whole module to memorize in like 2hours. End up i 1 hour memorize then lazy memorize. Should be more than enough to do well. Under the stress later i dunno if i will forget them.

After a power nap of 3 hours. I am refreshed now!

2010-09-09T00:47:00.003+08:00

HOHOHO 2 more papers left. my quality engineering and management paper is like 9am, 8hours away and i have not studied for it. Don't worry i am ready to burn the paper and drink it down. HAHA.

Its been a amazing 8th September. I'm officially attached ^^ to someone. Prepared a surprise for her and woots it works. HAHAHA. so happy now =]

2010-09-07T23:19:00.004+08:00

studying in club sucks alot lor. the bangala clean the aircon for a good 4 hours plus. It really sucks.

Well bad things over and i met beautiful and off for dinner at hougang. ahhh! i am damn tired. tomorrow got lesson and exam. thursday got exam. shagg!

2010-09-05T17:56:00.002+08:00

i gonna update on 2 days. Saturday and Sunday.

With jiawei coming my house to dota beside me, how am i to study. First table no space, Second it is so tempting! End up nv really study.

I went to RWS(Resort World Sentosa) to watch Voyage De La Vie. Its awesome i swear. It really got me so excited i was sitting on half the chair leaning forward waiting for something to happen. Get ur tix and watch, got student price.

Met up with beautiful then went got Yan Ming's brother chalet. Met up with Jo, Yan ming and some other people then we slack around the whole night and morning.

Sunday.

After slacking the whole morning, i had to go to holland village to do CIP. Man i was so tired i slept at the void deck waiting for things to happen. Did abit of stuffs and so tired i knock out for 1 hour plus. I AM TIRED!

2010-09-04T02:43:00.003+08:00

For 5 minutes i wanted to just stand up and pack some clothes leaave this god damn house. You are my mom yet you are not being one. Those who know the plight i am in now, i guess only a few, know what i am facing now.

You rather spend your time outside in temple, you rather spend your money on temple activities than on your kids. You say all you do is for a better life for yourself and us. I don't see the good merits benefits i won't believe it. I was brought into buddhism, i trusted it. I trust that it will sink you so deep into it that you live your life like a pious buddhist. Everything you do must be buddhism, everything you say must have a link to buddhism.

You rather use the time you have to close deals and just that 1 bloody deal then the money goes to temple and other association. All you complain to me is lack of money and presses me to get that damn scholarship thingy. You know how fucking stress i am?

I lack of the care and concern and love given to me. Dad have 2 sons already, one has mental disorder, one has his own family and business, he don't need me, he loathe me, i am like a subsitute for my deceased brother. He likes his only daughter, my sister. You my mother always say you love me so much more than my sister cause i know how to think whats right and wrong. Now that i don't greet you anymore cause i don't even feel that you are my mother, you say i don't need you.

If i don't need you cause you say i am old, then why do you care about me so much? Then here you are saying i think i am already old and already showing my true colours when i am not even 21 yet. What are you trying to say? one moment say i am old enough, don't need you, one moment you say i think i am old.

You said you have nothing to do at home so you stay at temple. You always use me as an excuse and ask me help you lie so you could stay in temple longer. Look at you, tired and worn out, sleeping at 2am waking up at 7am. You could come home early do some house work and not throwing everything to dad. You could sleep early. you spend your time doing things related to buddhism stuffs which you believe too much, some of which are totally unnecessary. You make yourself tired for something not necessary. there are things more important to do yet you choose to ignore them.

Cause of you choosing to come home late to go temple and not trying to close anymore deals, you made dad more pissed that he have to do housework and he vent all his fucking anger on me. What the hell am i here for? Your tool? his punching bag?

One day i will really want to walk out of this god damn house.

2010-09-03T23:06:00.001+08:00

It sucks!!! my aeroma cui already, cui already!!! oh crap.

Nevermind, felt so much better after watching a movie with beautiful and had a wonderful dinner and dessert with her.

Tonight i shall play dota and reward myself for surviving 1st week. HAHA.

2010-09-03T01:43:00.003+08:00

Every new Semester

After first week

After second week

Before the mid-term test

During the mid term test

After the mid-term test

Before the final exam

Once get to know final exam schedule

7 Days before the final exam paper

6 Days before the final exam paper

5 Days before the final exam paper

4 Days before the final exam paper

3 Days before the final exam paper

2 Days before the final exam paper

1 Day before the final exam paper

The night before the final exam paper

1 Hour before the final exam paper

During the final exam paper

Once walk out of the examination hall

After the final exam, during the holidays

2010-09-02T20:44:00.001+08:00

Shagg, alot alot to study yet only 1 day left. SCREW aerospace materials.

2010-09-02T01:53:00.002+08:00

This coming saturday i am going to RWS(resort world sentosa) for a circus performance.

Its Voyage De La Vie

About the show

“Voyage de la Vie” or the “journey of life” is a story of a boy’s metaphoric journey, or a rite of passage before he becomes an adult.

Enter the world of the mysterious Lantern Keeper, the charming Crystal Cat and the mesmerizing Diva along with extraordinary inhabitants. Explore the journey of the boy on an adventurous search to discover his destiny. An unforgettable experience of magnificent sets, glamorous costumes and amazing circus feats awaits…

A circus theatre spectacular, the story is told through song and dance, combining with the energy, physicality and athleticism of circus arts, resulting in a contemporary cutting edge performance art form which fully engages the senses and keeps audiences on the edge of their seats. The first circus theatre spectacular ever to be created in
Singapore, it presents an international cast of circus stars brought together from 16 countries

2010-09-02T00:11:00.002+08:00

Woke by an unexpected morning with a random conversation and random intention. LOL.

met Kel and his bro along with peng jie for breakfast. Funny thing is me and kel ending up eating pastamania while darick and peng jie eating food culture. so much for breakfast together.

Went school to do a last minute revision and go for Stats paper. :/

met up with beautiful at AMK library and had dinner. Change my samsung jet for a nokia E71.

someone is tempted to buy a new phone which we both like.. however its in a cui condition.

1 down 4 more to go!!! Gambatet!

2010-09-01T11:58:00.000+08:00

thats practically how i was feeling last night before i sms to sleep.

2010-08-31T22:46:00.003+08:00

After so long i finally wake up like so early in the morning, just to go school for a 1 hour lesson. Before going back to WSSS for teachers' day.

Well its pretty to see some juniors and students saying hi with a enthu waving of hands. Its great to see those teachers who taught me well and i wish to be like them someday. Got to thanks Kel for the ride to school.

Celebrations over study time over at BPP mac. Got so tempted and went to catch a movie at causeway. STEP UP 3!! Its cool and nice. and of course with beautiful which is even nicer =]

gotta study for friday's paper instead of tomorrow's paper. HAHA. CIAOs

P/S study hard yea rebecca, you promised.

2010-08-31T00:21:00.004+08:00

another day spent studying in school. Trying to get those damn words and images into my head. STRIVE HARD!

after speaking to her, my heart felt better somehow. Its like i'm more calm and clearer. However i still have something to decide on. Wish me luck!

I'm procrastinating my studies and sleeping time. If you do not know what is the meaning of procrastination, a picture should help alot.

2010-08-30T01:16:00.004+08:00

It feels like i am giving you stress. I know its tough on you. I'm sorry for creating this mess unknowingly, i could have contain the situation better. Regardless of the answer, i won't change the way i treat you, look at you or talk to you.

After thinking for some time on my way home, i find that i am pretty abnormal. I have split personalities which i am totally aware of. But sometimes the personalities seems to mix and match themselves. Up till now i have 6. Crappy, Stern, Lax, Sunshine outgoing, Unstable. The 6th personality seems to be the Random with a mixture of the 5 personalities.

I do not know how to explain. Prolly when i am able to explain, I can make you feel confident about me and you will know of the change. Until then you won't be hearing these words "i really like you, can you be my girlfriend?" not that i don't like you anymore. Its just me who want to realized which is the IVAN whom you like and will entrust to.

When i am ready i will propose to you in a different and special manner. Confidently saying these words out "I REALLY LIKE YOU, CAN YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND?"

The 6 or 7 Ivan will fall apart and reform back into the single true Ivan.

2010-08-28T17:44:00.002+08:00

How we became like this was just a amazing in fact, we had so much in difference and similarities are like a handful? Well Thats not a problem here, we are both strangers 5-6months back, we only started talking like 2 months back despite knowing that we are from wakeboarding and from SP. We both know that we are single and we just started talking like normal friends does. Its this feeling that develops between us at some point of time and we like that feeling alot. Its like comfortable and nice. Maybe its just a feeling for a very good friend, but to me right now, i don't feel like that feeling is meant for good friends, its a feeling for a good relationship to start. We both like each other thats for sure i know.

I like you too, alot. This alot is not enough to say that i will die for you and stuffs yet. We are not like childhood BFF and then feelings start to come into the picture, We have alot to learn from each other and know from each other. I believe someday i will have this feeling that i would die for you. Right now, i will take this chance that we both have a same liking for each other to know more about you. Cause i know that right now at this moment, i like you alot and i have not regret spending so much time with you. In times to come i will too not regret spending these much time with you and more time to come.

Give ourselves a chance to know each other and let whatever feelings that will develop, develops and grow. Take things slowly and take each step at a time, i believe if we give each other a chance, time is not a problem. (Unless one day i used up all my tender loving care and surprises and someone else scoop me away. HAHAHA)

2010-08-27T00:49:00.004+08:00

Wa so i must read your blog msn you a offline message before i get a post dedicated for me?

Well, i have lots of things to share with you too, but because we drifted apart and even after we seems to have become a normal friend from a close sibling, i want to tell you so much stuffs, just that my personality is those that 拖泥带水。 I dunno how to tell you and explain how i feel about your relationship with Yanming, I dunno how to tell him and like declare some stuffs at that point. Plus you know i don't like alot of ppl in PKS who likes to find trouble with me, and they are like close friends of those friends of Jeremy and YM, so i decided to fade out of the scene without a word. Its rather selfish of me to do so, but at that point of time, i felt that what i did was necessary. (until now i still dunno if i was in that situation now what should i do)

Its only recently that my life starts afresh and i try to solve my problems and prevent some misunderstandings.

I have been real busy and times when i am is like last minute nothing on and i will use that time to catch back my sleeps and rest my worn out body. There are times i wanted to ask you out and watch movie like we used to do movie marathon. I rememeber Spiderman 3 at tampines mall and another movie. However, at that time having decided to stay out the cliques of friends picture i was resolved to stop finding you people again.

I know how feelings grow unexpectedly and i won't stop you from being together with YM, i will in turn wish you to be happy and have a healthy relationship with often quarreling and breaking down but in the end everything is resolved with you growing up. I dunno why in my eyes you are always that cute never grow up girl who i just want to take care of like a daughter or sister.

HAHAHA you know from the start i like any girl is not just base on their outer looks right? Its the personality of the person which is more important, the looks and other bonues are what help them attract me to know them more. AHAHHA. I won't say she is damn pretty, but i can say in my eyes she is the prettiest. My taste is definitely good, hahaha. Its still the same nice when i befriend you, or rather accept this friendship made to me by you.

Back then in that junior camp at Changi park there, i remember how i was the sai gang warrior planning games to being a night guard at night to make sure people dont' fight. And this fat retard face guy try to act hero and you dislike him. You caught my attention as a quite pitiful girl when that shit faced guy always call you and linling "mei". HAHA i forgot his name but only remember how we always call him that fat army shit face guy. How i actually stole his friendster photo and made another account with his name and his picture and making a joke out of it.

The only thing i will regret about our friendship is, i took care of you too much, never let you grow up. You are now, which is good. Well if you remember i keep secret safer than i keep my promise, HAHAHA. i give good advice which it can help others alot but not myself, HAHAHA. So if you have anything you need to tell me or share with me, don't feel shy or whatsoever. I will try to help you as much as i can (i seen and hear alot of stuffs for my age already so i am like a encyclopedia, nothing much is able to shock or surprise me). Remember anything under the sun also can share with me.

No Ukitake picture for you cause i prefer someone else and that is Kurosaki Ichigo in his hollow form, i like cool characters. HAHA. Not to mention Grimmjow too! When i look at the photo above, it reminds me of the impression when i first saw you in the camp. Emo like that. HAHA. Now you are like TALKATIVE! So different. HAHA.

Ok chance approve hahaha.

Hi Jo, Nice knowing you too. I am Ivan Allizwell Ho, You call me anything that suits you =]

2010-08-26T01:10:00.004+08:00

I'm glad i just say it out =]

I got 'sack'. i went to do video shooting for halloween scare crew for visitors during the halloween at night safari, so i nv go work. Then i received a message say this sunday i don't need work and i not getting my pay any sooner. SADED!

After having a sleepless night AGAIN, i decided to break the news to her, too bad, she had a sleepless night and saw a loophole i left in FB. HAHAHA, it didn't turn out the romantic way i had picture in mind. It turns out the opposite way, awkward situation. But it is still fine. HAHA.

5pm i went for make up for some halloween thingy, and my shooting of scene was at 9plus. Had a tough time with my character and make ups. Its abit fucked up for me to be a hypocrite tonight during the filming session. Whats worst is the removing of make up. Its irritating. I can't show any pictures here of my role, but i can only say "GO NIGHT SAFARI DURING HALLOWEENS!"

Felt bad for not able to sms her and had to keep her waiting till 10pm in the dark dark scary SP. i guess i can secure a 9min for 2.4km run. I sprinted from business block all the way to the main library. Sent her home.

I really like that hug, i like that fragrant, i like that smile, i like you =]

I promise to do that tutorial and 1 past year paper, 11am need show Doc. Jaya. Looks like i need to wake up early to do it.

P/S busy with schoolworks nowadays so Jo, your post i shall do it for you another day=] i want post KUROSAKI ICHIGO picture. hahaha!

2010-08-24T21:48:00.002+08:00

Its been a wasted day going to school to try to study. Ended up in the library reading newspaper.

feel like something is missing until i'm back home infront of my laptop webcaming with you. You were on my mind the whole day. Dunno why i got a feeling this feeling will evolve to something that i have not felt for 4 years.

I don't dare to face the answer, can you tell e how to deliver the answer to you?

or

are you feeling the same way as i am now?

2010-08-24T00:46:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to like you more and more. I dunno what is the feeling. All i know is that i want to protect you, i don't wish to see you hurt or anything. I want to see you smile, i want to be the one who always manage to cheer you up and say alliszvell.

While crossing the road i pull you back cause of a turning car, how i wish i didn't let it go. I dunno why i didn't want to let it go but i did. The hesitation is there.

How i wish the bus would just break down right there at that moment, how i wish the bus journey was like around the world long.

Someone once broke up with me after 1 month, telling me this "you got to know the feeling is just a way you feel for a close friend or you like that someone" I fell for that someone after we became close friends, however the feeling of wanting to protect the person so much, be with that person so much wasn't as strong as now.

Though i made this mistake so many times, treating a person real good and the person treat me like a close friend, i ended up falling for that person and turns out just the opposite of what i imagine and wanted it to be.

I don't want another mistake that i had made 4years ago. I hope you will be able to wait till i got the answer and tell you.

I can strongly tell you right now, i like you alot alot, i want to keep you safe from harm, i want to take your nightmare and give you my dreams, i want to hold you tightly in my arms, i want to rest on your head while you resting on my shoulders, i want to tell you so badly but i just can't summon enough courage.

I'm happy that i could spent as much time as i can with you, i'm happy that all these while i had you as my friend, i'm happy to be able to see you when sending you back, when you are working, when i am webcaming.

2010-08-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

REBECCA this is for you!

Sometimes the things you wish for you get. Thus, be careful when you wish!!!!!!

This is priceless!

A married couple in their early 60s was celebrating their 40th wedding anniversary in a quiet, romantic little restaurant.

Suddenly, a tiny yet beautiful fairy appeared on their table.

She said, 'For being such an exemplary married couple and for being loving to each other for all this time, I will grant youeach a wish.'

The wife answered, 'Oh, I want to travel around the world with my darling husband.'

The fairy waved her magic wand and - poof! - two ticketsfor the Queen Mary II appeared in her hands.

The husband thought for a moment: 'Well, this is allvery romantic, but an opportunity like this will never come again. I'm sorry my love, but my wish is to have a wife 30 years younger than me.'

The wife and the fairy were deeply disappointed, but a wish is a wish.

So the fairy waved her magic wand and poof!.....the husband became 92 years old.

The moral of this story: Men who are ungrateful and idiots should remember that fairies are female.....

2010-08-18T00:48:00.002+08:00

Start studying for my exams already, i am so determined to do well this time. Another thing is i am trying so so so hard to not smoke while studying this time round. How successful i dunno.

Got myself a new job rather lax and have nice food. I'm currently working at MBS!! Marina Bay Sands!!

I am not in love with you definitely, i'm just falling in love with you.

2010-08-14T16:58:00.002+08:00

Its the 7th month and i don't really have that special feeling of taking extra caution in things that i do.

I still hang out late, i still stay up late and many more i forgotten.

Lets touch on Thursday first, Morning went for training, was rather tired for the training and went for a swim. Halloween scare crew briefing and next week is the camp!!! AWESOME! a halloween scare crew camp sure got night walk and its the 7th month! Went for FYP then some YOG torch thingy. Ended up home late.

Friday morning went to lavender to have breakfast then some hobby shop for FYP stuffs. Down to chinatown for some FYP stuffs before going back to school. PISSED with you motherfucker, no respect at all for me. forget about what you did for now. went to ESKI Bar to chill with some bunch of people. Tonight was not as awesome as previous times. 1 bottle of V.S.O.P and a jug of long island plus JAGER BOMBS!!!!

On my way home, i hid the bottle of vsop in some metering unit on the 12th floor, a floor above mine. For some reason i had to hide it and retrieve it the next day. I walked to the end of the corridor for the stairs down, when turning to the stairways i saw this small bicycle 4 wheeled for kids in the middle of the pathway moved abit. while the rest of the bikes are chained to the handle bars and stuffs. I was taken aback!! Then continue walking home like nothing happen. Trust me i was not drunk.

2010-08-11T12:22:00.003+08:00

Well its been some time since i last post anything. Just being real lazy hahaha.. Thiau pub recently and lost my iphone while cabbing to my friend's place after drinking alot. Well heartache of course.

Someone requested for a joke to be posted up and here it goes. hopefully it will cheer you up a little.

There was once a very good barber in NEW YORK , who gave Free Haircuts to
everybody who came into his shop to have their haircuts.

One day a florist went to him for a haircut.
After the cut, he wanted to pay the barber, but the barber replied:
'It's alright, I cannot accept money from you. I am doing community
service.'

The Florist was happy and left the shop.

The next morning when the barber went to open his shop, there was a thank
you card and a dozen roses waiting at his door

A policeman went for a haircut and he also wanted to pay the barber after
the cut.
But the barber replied: 'I cannot accept money from you. I am doing
community service.'

The cop was happy and left the shop.
The next morning when the barber went to open his shop, there was a thank
you card and a dozen donuts waiting at his door.

A Indian software engineer went for a haircut and he also wanted to pay the
barber after the cut.
But the barber replied: 'I cannot accept money from you. I am doing
community service.'
The Indian software engineer was very happy and left..

The next morning when the barber went to open his shop, guess what he
found there....... ......

Can you guess?

Come on, think like a Indian. ....

have you got the answer ............ ?????

come on ............

guess

guess

guess

A dozen Indians waiting for free haircuts!

2010-07-27T20:09:00.003+08:00

HOHOHO after 2 days of work, finally, My figurine is out. My girl. Its roughly some shape out however its edgy, sharp, out of shape, not curvy. ITS OK! its very the OKAY! tomorrow i will file her and clay her. Then i am almost done with this sexy bitch!!

Yesterday i only cut out some outline.

Then once both side shoulder is almost done, i work on her back and her perky butt.

Then touch up on her boobs. Which is very rectangle instead of round and bouncy look.

After gluing the parts together it looks something like them (below)

Made a mess at the stairways, but as a good citizen and neighbour, i sweep up rubbish one ok.

2010-07-26T23:09:00.004+08:00

Fast update about where i've been and done what.

Basically sunday i went down to Vivo city to give Michelle, Ting Ting, Chlorine, Yu jia and also jordan who went to shave their head. Not to mention i last minute got to know that Jeff shaved too. Its Hair for hope charity for children cancer foundation i think. Its rather brave and meaningful. I guess i shall have mine shaved next year, DEPENDING NS or HFH comes first.

Went to bukit gombak to find a shop which deals with RC planes, to realized the shop is freaking small. Why is it so famous? Cause its the only RC plane shop around this are. FML waste my time.

So today is monday, school starts at 12pm. Gym from 10-11 and realized that i am damn lazy, lost the motivation and strength to train and keep fit. Glad that i have the wakeboarders to train with nowadays.

I so wanna go for the BATAM cable riding man. I deserve some rest and fun. Don't make me jealous huimin.

2010-07-25T02:23:00.003+08:00

Its been 10 days since i last blogged an entry. Been telling myself to update this blog but i am either too lazy or too busy.

Still sick but not dying. Had presentations and hells lots of project.

Got so bored in the night, i went to watch despicable me. Its rather nice. However the next nice thing is bubble tea from KOI! its unlike any bubble tea now in singapore. It taste like the olden days pasar malam style bubble tea with a doll on top of a shaking machine. However the price is 2x the usual bubble tea you see, waiting time goes up to more than 10x your normal waiting time.

friday went for a after competition party at punggol. Aparrently the pub known as beer garden is owned by the wakeboard coach frankie and he invited us and some other wakeboarding associated peeps to join the party. It was party people.

Table of pool, hoe garden, tiger, san miger, johnny black label, plus a table of food. On top of that, awesome bunch of wakeboarders.

today i woke up at 4pm after a 14hours of sleep. Rot at home the whole day and somehow i have been hit by a legendary punch in kungfu flims. call the 'hua gu mian zhang' which is melting bones punch. My joints are like aching as though they have been misaligned. tried placing them back in position but they self misalign themselves again soon after. FML!

i forgot to mention that dinner after training at Mr Prata was so sucky and it pisses me off alot alot?

2010-07-14T19:35:00.002+08:00

Last thursday went for wakeboarding dinner cum celebration at fish and co. Rushed home for FYP stuffs. Whats nice at fish and co.? i still dunno though.

Friday was a fun night. Went for international student night and fool around and of course had a full buffet dinner.

Saturday went for tanning at cafe del'ma. Ordered a jager bombs and blue hawaii to go with the tanning. Of course with some finger food. Dinner at bus interchange before heading for a great dessert. BEN & JERRY strawberry cheesecake ice cream, 1 tub of course. HAHAHA.. don't jealous. Took a while to persuade someone to go Zirca/rebel. Well it was definitely a blast. Reach home about 6plus. totally shagged.

Sunday i woke up afte a little sleep and went movie with buddy. Eclipse and Knight and day. Had suki sushi for dinner. All the sashimi was definitely yummy, too bad movie was about to start, if not open 1 sake to drink. After going home was so bored i went to watch triple tap at lot1. Thats how i end my previous week.

Monday had wakeboarding AGM and went home. Realized something wrong with my body but not sure of it, after i went to sleep i can feel myself getting warmer and warmer. Around 5am woke up to a freaking headache.

I came down with a fucking bad fever. Luckily jiawei picked up my call in the nick of time to buy me lunch. I was so fucking sick that i can hardly walk. After taking some panadol and sore throat pills, i went to rest. thinking it would recover like before. NO! i woke up at 5pm to a worst headache. Went to the clinic and see a doctor. 39degree celcius, so i had to take an injection to push the fever down.

Pratically rotted at home the whole of tuesday and wednesday. Miss my gems presentation. DAMNIT. need to wait till when then present i also dunno. still feel alittle feverish.

2010-07-07T21:35:00.002+08:00

Its been a week of FYP FYP FYP!

Monday stayed back in school till 9pm for FYP.

Tuesday lesson start at 8a,. Its aerospace materials. There is no more practical and Mr bang does not conduct tutorials, yet he expect us to go school at 8am and do nothing. As in literally nothing. Sleep in class or whatever, just present. WTF LA! i did not turn up so no attendance. Skip 2 lectures so attend lesson starting from 1pm. FYP after that.

Wedesday was much relax, completed what is necessary for some FYP shits and yesh, Macdonald at T16 is open. Dinner and Ice Cream there. Slack in school to jailbreak my bloody phone. FAILED after 3hours of attempt. Need to wait for 1 month before the jailbreak for ISO 4 is out. damn sian.

2010-06-29T23:15:00.003+08:00

As what people says strike the iron while its hot. I procrastinated my blogging of past few entertaining events and i can hardly remember what i did. Luckily i have my calender and to do list to refresh my mind.

Previous post is abt HTC, so this post is about all the post HTC activities.

Remember last tuesday i was conned to leave my computer chair which i sat on for the whole day to Toa Payoh for Nasi Lemak. End up taking a 30min hus ride from TPY to somewhere for Kuay Zuap which ain't that tasty and walk 10min back to TPY. Sounds damn stupid la. By the time reach home already damn late.

Wednesday had to go school for FYP. Cracked my head for Catia drawing of my aeroplane design. Thought i could finally ditch that ex-gf of mine. Now headache over her. I can't understand how her program works. Damn stress over her so i went to USS. Any idea where is that? Its Universal Studio Singapore! Bought an annual pass $318. So what i lack now is a islander card and i shall visit there often. Watched the A-team at vivo and laughed like WOOTS! Its a awesome movie.

Thursday will be training day as usual and went to town for a walk, acompany chelsea to window shop for her birthday stuffs. I just went for some yoghut. HAHA!

Friday was steamboat outing with HTC. some steamboat restaurant at bugis. It was so entertaining as i was eating from 2 steamboat. Front and back. with a simple twist of waist i get to enjoy 2 steamboat. Movie cancelled so Alvin was so kind to fetch me home on his shadow. Decided to slack at Teck Whye and chat up alot of funny stuffs. A call from sembawang to invite us over. So we got to sembawang and open up a total of 12 cans of beer that night to chat and discuss serious matters. it was a awesome night till 8am.

Slept for few hours and it was about time to carry out our plans when expected things spoils the plans. So i watch some show before heading to icon to celebrate Chelsea's birthday. Did some BBQ and play 7-up. Glad i didn't lose. Loser had to drink up this concotion of disgusting stuffs which chelsea mixed. I remembered an awesome agile flexible dodge by me, Nelson toss me into the pool and i manage to set my toes at the edge of the pool and twist myself out of the wet situation. That amazed everyone there. Not to mention the drunkard nelson did crack up some laughter.

I play host and brought everyone to ESKI Bar. MAN i love that place so much, damn sure we had a bloody good night there. my facebook pictures will explain all the happening events i had man.

One thing spoils the week was international water festival at marina barrage. After i rush home from ESKI and home, i slept 4 hours and went to marina barrage. it was raining. Could not see a single kite in the sky. Noon time it was cooling and kites start to soar into the skies when it starts to get hot. I didn't get to tan yet i was sweating like hell. Desperately looking for the kite stall for hours all over the bloody hot place, but can't find. cause they already left the place early.

School reopen already, but i'm still not prepared for it, i still need time to rest. So far all the results i got back, all just pass except for 1. 20/100 fucking flunk!

nevertheless i need to buck up and bite through this tough time. After confirming something, the guy deep within me is cheerful once again.

2010-06-25T14:32:00.002+08:00

Its been a long hiatsu. I have been to a camp. Happiteen camp.

Thanks to happiteen camp and those in it. This have given me a chance to know you people better, It has given me a chance to know what i am capable better. However it has not shown me the way that i need to know. I would like to thanks everyone who shown me the way and guiding me. Tolerating me and my wilfullness. As most of you can see from my facebook pictures, i having alot of fun and at the same time alot of stress.

Hopfully there will be HTC 4 where i can bring more friends there to help out.

After camp is training and training, Its time to burn fats. As usual after training go town with the wakeboarders. Window shop around and kill time.

school is reopening soon and the thought of it is killing me bit by bit. YAWNS!

2010-06-15T23:29:00.002+08:00

Today was like tiring tiring day.

Went to school to hand up assignment and went to orchard. meeting time 1pm and i reached at 12.40pm. Waited till like 2.30pm before everyone comes. It was a long boring wait. Had a meeting at soup spoon for 4 hours and have to start walking.

Rest foot at far east and continue 2nd meeting. It was hell of a time however it was a fun meeting. Meetings with me and raymond around, hardly its a stern atmosphere.

Reached home received a message which rather pissed me off. "this sunday meeting for Final Year Project, blah blah blah, i already tell you in advance so make yourself free"

so i replied with "i tomorrow going camp till sunday"

Reply back with " you always never turn up for FYP meetings you still want to do not?"

FUCKING PISSED! its not like i always want to MIA, you had the meetings i am having wedding of my best mentor, followed by mst we did not meet, then now holiday i am having a camp! furthermore its a rather taxing camp for me and important for the organisation.

When i went to find lecturers where were you? damn backstage stuffs you never see me do, but you get pissed off when i didn't turn for meetings. Not like i never turn up and don't bother to find out what i missed out. You people know that since year 1 i am a FUCKING busy guy. Hell friends for 2 years plus and you still don't know me and getting pissed over this kind of matter?

SCREW THIS DAMN THING ALRIGHT!

2010-06-14T23:38:00.003+08:00

conclusion of monday. Awesome day with the wakeboarders.

Training in the morning reminded me of the days i was in dragonboat. Cause it was in the gym and what i was doing was pushing myself to the limit. All the veins were popping out, all the blood vessels were exploding, my heart was pumping at the highest rate. I was feeling giddy and experiencing blur vision.

I miss those days when i was pushing myself, i know that there is something i wish to fight for. Right now i am like aimlessly doing stuffs.

A whole noon of sun tanning and swimming in the school pool and playing. Went to orchard with the boarders to do some window shopping and chit chat. It was a pretty laughable day with all the stupid and random jokes, games and chats we had.

2010-06-10T18:42:00.003+08:00

What is happening to me? For a moment i was happy going for QEM test and after QEM paper i am like a changed person.

I start to shiver in fear, was so afraid of it. Was so afraid that i was shaking but they did not notice. They were busy revising. I start to panick and somehow i need to pee many times. I was feeling so tired and shag. Mentally and physically, i went into silence, all i want was to complete APP.II paper as fast as i could. given time 1hr30min and i rushed it in 30min. packed up my stuffs and head home in 30min time.

I made 3 plans to head out but canceled it. 3 invitations for me yet i reject them.

I need a heartwarming, secure feel.

Is it the lack of sleep + nicotine and caffine acting up on my body? I feel like screaming yet i can't summon the energy. I am tired yet i can't sleep. I wish to talk to you but i ain't getting your replies. What the shit!

2010-06-10T03:28:00.002+08:00

Heres to recap my mundane MST life as a poly year 3 student. pretty much of mugging and mugging. Mug for it, do it, but no time to finish it. DANG!

Its like learning all that need to be tested the day before the test. 1 reason the lecturer sucks at teaching. I do pay attention if the lecturer is nice. BUT damn, his lessons are just shitty, not boring but shitty.

Just now after Airframe System it pissed me off totally by that shitty lecturer. Question paper wrote "redraw the diagram with the necessary graphic to show the change in the fluid system" and the next sentence "draw everything between the supply line and return line" so which am i to follow, draw necessary or follow.

So i raised my hand and asked the shitty lecturer, his reply read the question lor. It says draw what is necessary or draw everything. FUCKING HELL the question paper says clearly draw whatever is necessary and everything! WTF!

ANGRY!

Train to bedok to Mel's (that fucking VIP) house to follow him to pick up his QEM notes, then train back to the corner of the MRT system line, Yew Tee. Study at mac till 1 plus before coming up to my house to continue studying. He is fast asleep on my BMW bed. I am still trying to mug more. YAWNS~

2010-06-02T13:36:00.001+08:00

Exam schedule is out. GAN PUA SIAN!

2010-05-25T23:18:00.003+08:00

Today is a freaking long day.

8am to 5pm class. paragon to mug till 9pm.

Intended idea was to go holland V to study at some cafe, however me and Mel never alight at the bus stop and we just travel all the way to town. Dinner at Soup Spoon and mug at Cha Cha, its a nice japanese drink stall.

walked from paragon to plaza sing to find some inspiration for alot of stuffs. hopefully all the ideas can work out well.

2010-05-23T03:17:00.002+08:00

Time to update this bloggy of mine.

Week of happening stuffs, injure here and there and boring lessons. training and 2 self proclaim no school days.

However saturday is a different story.

Due to late night dota session with some noobshits i sleep at 5am and woke up around 2 plus. Went to CDANs for some bowling session with some band juniors. Partly cause its veronica birthday this coming tuesday. First game was nice score 90++. 2nd game was team was rather off form already, 3rd game i dislocated my right wrist, thats the reason for damn off form game. scoring 4 times in a row of ZERO! 5 ZEROS in the game. DAMNIT.

Didn't went for band AAR meeting, i rather go down to Vivo to meet my ICE peeps than to a meeting where i will see some assholes whom i don't wish to see. Dinner at soup restaurant and eat the leftovers, cause i am late. Kay la, my people where got so bad give me leftovers, they save food for me la. HAHA. thanks yo.

Dessert at ben and jerrys!!! AWESOME!!! 1 pint of choco brownie and strawberrycheesecake. AWESOME! rooftop to play some card monopoly and it was hilarious. For no reason i was pillared. FML!

Went to park lane for dota session with Melvin and Xiang han. Miss the good old times when DARE/FT/03 were a class.

Just got home around 3am and i don't think i can sleep, i got to reach tanah merah at 8.15am later!!

2010-05-16T20:09:00.002+08:00

Friday

Ended school and went roaming around aimlessly till Melvin is donw from his TP. Went haji lane for a sheesha session then to Thai pub at golden mile. The place can be nice and scary at the same time. I drank around 8 cups of tiger and ended up puking twice badly. The thai food at golden mile rather nice. Ate porridge and fried rice for supper.

Saturday

Went over to peiwen don't know for what before going to Katong to play lan with Melvin. Bus to woodlands then train to CCK for breakfast before meeting Nessa and her friends. Went Jurong point for movie session, Backup plan. Not exactly that awesome though. Queensway to window shop for ManU shirt. Going to buy next week when i got the money.

Picnic at chinese garden after shopping and it was rather fun. My first time picnicking and there was so much food till cannot finish. Went to Greenridge KFC to rest before taking 190 to Clarke Quay. Meet Pei shan then went to her friend's birthday party at Zirca.

Sunday

Club ends at 4.30am and rest off somewhere before meeting Nessa at clementi for a fishing trip to pulau hantu. Only caught 3 small fish, Not bad le hor. HAHAHA. I want go again!!! again!! again!

So for 2 nights of party animal, i only get to sleep 5 hours!

2010-05-11T18:58:00.007+08:00

Lesson from 8am - 5pm today, rather hard to tong so long lor. Consider that i had some nightmare throughout my sleep which prompts me to wake up several times. Its a miracle despite having these factors that should lead me to a tiring and mundane day, i was so keen in learning today.
However today seems to be a rather fragile day, everything seems rather fragile.

After breakfast i sat down in the lecture hall with the lecturer right infront of me. I rested my leg on the chair and pressed against it. Normally this design chair don't give way no matter how hard i apply pressure. However today, with the slightest pressure from my calf muscle it broke, Maybe not so little force since it broke. HAHAHAHA.. The whole lecture hall of 6 classes started to stare at me and laugh, some cheered while the lecturer staring at me. I was like acting innocent all the time. DAMNIT! i think that adds up to 6 chairs i broke in the lecture hall since year1.

Next was during lunch, Nelson LG secret appears to have nice crack patterns on the glass when Melvin shove the phone off the table and had it crash land on the floor. It was rather hilarious how one shove actually cause it to crack so badly when Nelson always drop it and whack it yet nothing happens.

After lunch i went for statistic lesson and was so engrossed in it when suddenly one side of my chair gave way. It scare the shit out of me and everyone was like laughing even my lecturer. I SWEAR the chair fail due to natural fatigue failure.

Tomorrow i am going back to WSSS to meet the principal.

2010-05-10T20:37:00.002+08:00

Back from Wakeboarding camp and no pictures of me wakeboarding cause only play awhile of it. Most of the time i am soaking in the water of throwing people into the water. And got thrown. Maybe when i go wakeboarding at punggol u get to see me flying with some stunts. HAHA..

I successfully trick quite a number of people to believing me that i am a year 1 poly student with Khairul Nizam as my name. PAWNAGE! My last chance to be a camper in poly camps. Definitely had fun making friends there like a freshie. I dare to say this camp won't be so fun without me. HAHA!

Woke up late for gym and swimming today so ended up swimming for 30min. Was hoping to find my ear stud in the olympic size pool where i do wakeboarding or got thrown into the pool and it came loose. I just bought it last week with nessa during a movie session. DAMNIT! i like that ear stud alot.

Can't wait for friday, might be going to thai pub with Mel and Nel. Feel bad if i don't go with them since they jio me to go since year 1. After which i will go over to Zirca to find Kel and peeps to finish up our vodka the last time we went. Its gonna be a party night.

Can't wait for saturday when i gonna watch another movie with VENESSA! Gonna shop for my first Man.U shirt HAHA. i'm a Man.U fan but not those super fanatic. AHAAHA!

2010-05-05T10:25:00.000+08:00


	8:00 - 9:00	9:00 - 10:00	10:00 - 11:00	11:00 - 12:00	12:00 - 13:00	13:00 - 14:00	14:00 - 15:00	15:00 - 16:00	16:00 - 17:00	17:00 - 18:00
Mon					MS6203 STAT Lecture DARE/FT/3A 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT18A Surojit Dutta Sem1	MM3206 PD Lecture DARE/FT/3A 12 T1863, W1122 Ting Keng Soon Sem1Wk1,3,5,7,11,13,15		MM3520 AFSYS Lecture DARE/FT/3A 05,06 T1635 Er Seow Hong Sem1	MM3450 APP II Lecture DARE/FT/3A 05,06 T1635 Hendra Sem1
Mon						MM3206 PD Tutorial DARE/FT/3A 12 T1863, W1122 Ting Keng Soon Sem1Wk2,4,6,8,12,14,16,20
Tue	MM3315 AEROMA Practical DARE/FT/3A 05 W1414/A Bang Toong Kiang Sem1Wk2,4,6,8,12,14,16,20		MS6203 STAT Lecture DARE/FT/3A 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT17A Surojit Dutta Sem1	MM3315 AEROMA Lecture DARE/FT/3A 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT17A Bang Toong Kiang Sem1		MS6203 STAT Tutorial DARE/FT/3A 05 T1564 Jaya Shreeram S/o S Jayaram Sem1	MM3520 AFSYS Lecture DARE/FT/3A 05,06 T1564 Er Seow Hong Sem1	MM3450 APP II Lecture DARE/FT/3A 05,06 T1564 Hendra Sem1
Tue	MM3315 AEROMA Tutorial DARE/FT/3A 05 T1844 Bang Toong Kiang Sem1Wk1,3,5,7,11,13,15
Wed	MM3206 PD Practical DARE/FT/3A 12 T1863, W1122 Ting Keng Soon Sem1			MM3824 QEM Lecture DARE/FT/3A 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT18A Chia Kiak Biow Sem1		BA503B EOM Lecture GE/BA503B/FT 01 T1555 Chin Kin Yong Sem1
Thu	MM3450 APP II Practical DARE/FT/3A 05 W1315/B Duncan Sih Wei Cheong Sem1Wk2,4,6,8,12,14,16,20		MM3824 QEM Lecture DARE/FT/3A 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT18A Chia Kiak Biow Sem1	MM3315 AEROMA Lecture DARE/FT/3A 01,02,03,04,05,06 LT18A Bang Toong Kiang Sem1			MM305Y PROJ-1 Project DARE/FT/3A 05 Sem1
Thu	MM3450 APP II Tutorial DARE/FT/3A 05 T1841 Duncan Sih Wei Cheong Sem1Wk1,3,5,7,11,13,15
Fri	MM3824 QEM Practical DARE/FT/3A 05 T1822/B Chan Ah Kuen Sem1Wk2,4,6,8,12,14,16,20		MM3520 AFSYS Practical DARE/FT/3A 05 W1214, W1315/B Er Seow Hong Sem1Wk1,3,5,7,11,13,15
Fri	MM3824 QEM Tutorial DARE/FT/3A 05 T1822/B Chan Ah Kuen Sem1Wk1,3,5,7,11,13,15		MM3520 AFSYS Tutorial DARE/FT/3A 05 W1315/G Er Seow Hong Sem1Wk2,4,6,8,12,14,16,20
Sat

2010-05-04T22:34:00.001+08:00

A bus carrying only ugly people crashes into an oncoming truck, and everyone inside dies. They then get to meet their maker, and because of the grief they have experienced; He decides to grant them one wish each, before they enter Paradise.

They're all lined up, and God asks the first one what the wish is. "I want to be gorgeous," and so God snaps His fingers, and it is done.

The second one in line hears this and says "I want to be gorgeous too."

Another snap of His fingers and the wish is granted.
This goes on for a while but when God is halfway down the line, the last guy in line starts laughing. When there are only ten people left, this guy is rolling on the floor, laughing.
Finally, God reaches this guy and asks him what his wish will be.

The guy calms down and says: " Make 'em all ugly again."

__________________

Memo

1 Bob Smith, my assistant programmer, can always be found
2 hard at work at his desk. He works independently, without
3 wasting company time talking to colleagues. Bob never
4 thinks twice about assisting fellow employees, and always
5 finishes given assignments on time. Often he takes extended
6 measures to complete his work, sometimes skipping coffee
7 breaks. Bob is a dedicated individual who has absolutely no
8 vanity in spite of his high accomplishments and profound
9 knowledge in his field. I firmly believe that Bob can be
10 classed as an asset employee, the type which cannot be
11 dispensed with. Consequently, I duly recommend that Bob be
12 promoted to executive management, and a proposal will be
13 executed as soon as possible.

Addendum:

That idiot was standing over my shoulder while I wrote the report sent to you earlier today. Kindly re-read only the odd numbered lines.